When Moms Are Weak

My mother suffered from serious depression during much of my childhood. I don’t remember her ever getting me up for school, making me breakfast or packing my lunch. I did all of that myself starting in the 1st grade. I was given an alarm clock, poured a bowl of Cheerios for myself every morning alone, and made my own lunch everyday.

I don’t tell you this so you will feel sorry for me, I turned out ok. But I tell you to explain how I turned out OK.

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My mother and I had a conversation recently about these years when I was young and taking care of myself. There is still much pain over the subject that we are slowly working through. But at some point in the conversation she said to me, “I knew I wasn’t being a mother to you. And when I couldn’t do things for you or be there for you – I could pray. And that is what I did. When I couldn’t do it myself, I asked Him to fill in the gaps for you.”

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And I can sit here today and tell you that He did just that. He filled in the gaps. He pursued me, gave me strength, discernment and wisdom. He was with me and had a great purpose in mind for my life. I had to go through some hard stuff along the way, but He was with me in every painful step.

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This fall has been a difficult one. We are over scheduled and I hate that. I can’t spend time with the kids as much as I would like, we are always rushing and I feel like I am not being the mom I want to be. So I take hope in prayer. Because of my story, I have buckets of faith that when I am weak as a mother, God is strong. He will fill the gaps and protect my children, give them strength and bring people into their lives who fill them as well.

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 2 Corinthians 12:9

On the days that we just don’t have it to give or when we make mistakes in mothering our little ones, He is made perfect in our weakness. It’s not fashionable to boast about such days but maybe we should – at least to ourselves and close friends!

Thank you Lord!

 

 

A Praying Mother

I do my best to educate myself on mommy things. I read, I research, I talk to other moms, I have mentors, I even attend seminars. But sometimes a situation arrises with a child that I have no idea what to do about and no book or friend or mentor or seminar has the answer I need. In these times all I can do is pray.

I had the opportunity to join a prayer group for our school this past year. This was my first time in a group like this and it was so encouraging to me. It was nice to get together with other mothers who believe in the power of prayer and have the same desires for our school and children that I do. Coming together to kneel before our King and ask for his guidance and protection together felt so much more powerful than me doing it alone.

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Being a part of this group also opened my eyes to what I can pray for for my kids too. That sounds funny, but for me sometimes, I’m not sure what exactly to pray for my kids. It’s usually, “Lord, please help me. I have no idea what I am doing. Give me guidance and patience. Amen.”  But I found some scriptures that gave me some much better ideas on how to pray for my kids.

You can pray that your kids will:

Know Christ as Savior early in life. (Psalm 63:1, 2 Timothy 3:15)

Have a hatred for sin. (Psalm 97:10)

Be caught when guilty. (Psalm 119:71)

Be protected from the evil one in each area of their lives: spiritual, emotional, and physical (John 17:15)

Have a responsible attitude in all their interpersonal relationships. (Daniel 6:3)

Respect those in authority over them. (Romans 13:1)

Desire the right kind of friends and be protected from the wrong friends. (Proverbs 1:10-11)

Be kept from the wrong mate and saved for the right one. (2 Corinthians 6:14-17)

Be kept pure until marriage (as well as the one they marry). (1 Corinthians 6:18-20)

Learn to totally submit to God and actively resist Satan in all things. (James 4:7)

Be single-hearted, willing to be sold out to Jesus Christ. (Romans 12:1-2)

Be hedged in so they cannot find their way to wrong people or wrong places and that the wrong people cannot find their way to them. (Hosea 2:6)

Oh, some really good stuff in there, right?! I created a little card out of these to keep in my Bible and by my bed.

Here are some printable versions for you:

Kids Prayer Card

Kids Pray Card with Scriptures

I have been thinking about it for a while, but I am finally going to start a prayer group for mothers. I am hoping it will be a place where we can share our needs, and pray for each other’s families while we watch the power of God work in our lives. If you have a burden for this too, I encourage you to do the same thing. Invite some friends over for an hour, mingle, pray, and then chat a little more. Wouldn’t it be exciting to see our families and communities transform just from us asking – together.  

“Where two or three people meet together in my name, I am there with them.” Matthew 18:20 [NIRV]

 

Trust Without Borders

I love the song Oceans by Hillsong right now. Below is a link to a video from a conference in Sydney where they performed it last year. The venue is amazing and the number of people worshipping together is moving.

Please click on the link below and take a few minutes to listen to the song while you read this today. The link will open in a new window so you can come back while it is playing and read. Please note there is an ad at the beginning of the video that you can skip after five seconds and then the song will begin playing.

Oceans (Where Feet May Fail) Hillsong UNITED

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever you would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my savior

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders.
Oh to have trust in God that has no borders. To fully put my life in His hands and trust that He will make good of all things that happen. To trust that even the painful parts of life are meant for my good. The things that happen to us that hurt beyond imagination are meant for good.  The Bible says “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose” Romans 8:28. Lord help me to trust deeply in that promise and live life trusting you without borders. Help me to not run when things don’t go as I want them to go but to trust that you are in control even when it looks like no one is.

Let me walk upon the waters, wherever you would call me.
Lord, take my life and use it for your good. Speak to me and tell me where you want me, where you need me. May I be willing to go wherever that is. Lord use me in great ways to glorify you and spread your love so that the pain of my life will have purpose and not be in vain. Lord, may I be willing to let my story be used to tell of your amazing faithfulness and love. May I not run and hide because the pain to too much to relive but may I follow where you lead and may you give me the strength to do what you ask of me.

Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander.
Pursue me and draw me deeper in a relationship with you where I will experience you in great ways. Where I will see your work and your faithfulness. Where I will feel your love and your grace. And Lord help me to seek you as much as I am humanly able. My feet wander, my mind wanders and I am easily distracted by earthly things. Take me deeper with you into the life you have for me. Lord may my feet follow as you guide me. Lord give me the strength to follow when it is hard.

And my faith will be made stronger in the presence of my savior.
Let it be so, that as I deepen my relationship with you my faith with be stronger. Lord I confess that my faith is so weak. When life hurts, I take my life in my own hands fully trusting only myself. Myself that only sees things in the present not as you see them with the perspective of eternity. May I learn to trust deeply. May I encounter the joy you have for me when I learn to trust fully. And Lord forgive me, for I will fail. But thank you for knowing that and offering me your peace, love, joy, security, forgiveness anyway…for I deserve none of it.

Lord help me, for I want to trust you without borders. I want to go where you call me, I want to go deeper with you so my faith can be made stronger. Lord I want my life to have purpose, I want the pain of my life to not be in vain. Lord give me courage, strength and purpose. I am willing.